Writing my angries out

Alright. So its 6 days until the Wedding of the summer and 7 days until I leave once again for Bumfuck, Wisconsin aka Stevens Point. It is Sunday. I think. And I'm using today and tomorrow to get stuff done in Fargo. Which of course has lead me to here. Barnes and Noble. Of course! Actually I do have to get stuff here, but currently this is what I'm doing which may or may not be a waste of my time. Normally it would be, but right now my reason for creating yet another blog that most likely no one will read is because I'm in one of those moods on one of those days. I'm tired, moody, irritable, annoyed (which might all sound repetitive, but I can do that because nobody is actually reading this). My reason for being this way on such a sunshiny day probably is a result of many things including being stuck at a cabin with a mother who is freeeaaakkking out about a wedding which she has decided to take on way too much, a somewhat creepy guy who I finally told to back off after he would text me everyday just to say "HEY WASSSUUPPP", and I'm still in that rut where I feel like I'm losing connection with people. Maybe it's all that small talk that I had to do as a server. Working 6 or 7 days a week serving during the summer might do that to you I guess. Not that $3,500 wasn't worth it. It definitely was. But it seems to take its toll.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this summer wasn't what I expected. Not that it was bad. It was just slow. And different. According to my family, I've grown up in ways that they're just so incredibly proud of me. Which last like a minute before they go back to wedding talk. Not that I'm not excited for the wedding. I am. It will just be nice when its all over and we can get to talk about something else and my mother isn't a crazy obsessed wedding nazi. Or maybe I'm just ready to go back to school.

I'm really hoping for this year to be different. I just want to fast forward to a week after school starts. When auditions are all over and the whole "excitement" of being back wares off for everybody. And I can once again have Starbucks to myself. Unfortunately it will now take me approx 7 minutes to walk there instead of two, but i suppose I'll survive that somehow. It could be worse.

More than anything I'm just ready to go to Spain. I need a change of scenery. I want to experience things on a larger scale. I know its bad to expect to have this incredible amazing journey that I'll always remember, but more than anything I want that. No matter what I know it'll be an eye-opening experience. One I'll have to work at. But for now I'm just going to take things as they come. That doesn't only come for Spain. But life in general. Insightful, right? Maybe not so much. But since nobody reads this, it's okay!

I really need new music.

And a year and some later....

So it's been over a year since my last post, so I thought to myself. I said "Self, what better time to write a blog than a year after your last post at almost 2 in the morning when you told yourself you would get up at 10 and work out the next morn?". So here I am. If you are reading this, welcome to my blog where magical writings happen (like you couldn't tell already!). So here I go again.

And don't worry. Even though I'm a sophisticated college student who is currently in the midst of training for her waitressing job this summer, I'll try to stoop down to a level that you folk can understand.

So college. Looking back on this past year, I feel like I did a total of maybe 3 things. Those things are study (duh), spend a lot of time on facebook, and drank way too much Starbucks. All 3 which are probably a giant waste of my time. But for some reason, I feel more grown up. Must be all that coffee. Mmm I could really go for an iced caramel macchiato right about now. Too bad there are NO Starbucks here in Ottertail, MN - Population: like 15. I have an addiction. It's bad.

Besides those 3 things, I guess this year was good. A lot of it sucked actually. Like to the point where I just wanted to pick up and leave. But I had a few good friendsies here and there who carried me though. My best friend there, Marissa, is actually leaving to go to Milwaukee next year. So. You know. That's really really cool. I don't know. I honestly keep changing my mind back and forth on whether I want to be at Stevens Point or not. It's hard to keep track. For now, I'm sticking with Stevens Point. Spanish Major. Drama Minor. With the way things are going, that will probably change. But I AM going to be studying abroad in Valladolid, Spain next Spring hopefully, so I'm hoping that'll raise my spirits.

Sorry if I sound a little dumpy right now. And sorry I just said the word "dumpy". Hope you didn't think of poop or anything. Anyway. Things are just kinda frustrating right now. I'm going on my 4th day of training at work with all new people and living at the lake with my sister where currently none of my friends reside. Times can get pretty lonely. It doesn't help that the few days I was actually in Fargo, I was tired all the time so I didn't even have that much fun with my friends. AND the weather is dumpy. There I go again. Sorry. But seriously though. So depressing. I suppose I didn't really know what to expect this summer. First summer away from Trollwood and I'm already Judgy McJudgerson. I just get all freaky about meeting new people. I don't know why, but automatically when I meet new people, I just assume that they hate me unless they laugh at a joke I make or personally approach me and ask me questions or something. Which there isn't much of at good ol' Willy T's training days. But I know it'll get better. Everything just takes time. I'm just an impatient little ginger who wants everyone to like her and wants to have a fun summer. Guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I guess I'll leave you (aka NOBODY) with that. I'll keep it relatively short. Who knows! Maybe there will be more to come.

Dear future me,

please prove me wrong.

thanks

love, present me.

Good Morning Friends

It is now April. The sun is shining. The sky is blue. And life is good.

After all the chaos during January-March of Sound of Music, How to Eat Like a Child, preparing for my audition, an excessive amount of homework and reading, and choir tour it is nice to finally have a break. Now I have all sorts of time to do pointless things like write a blog!

I am currently on ticketmaster trying to purchase tickets for Lady Gaga's concert in the cities, but everyone else is trying to get tickets at the same time so it is so hard to get through to actually get tickets. It's a bitch of a process. Good thing I have nothing to do today.

There seems to be a lot of prom talk lately. I have an incredibly gorgeous dress with wonderful jewelry and shoes. Plus my mom is making me a bolero jacket for the occasion as well. It better be a damn good night. Just saying.

Trollwood is slowly creeping up on us. I have to go sign up for an audition today. I went yesterday, but they were closed. But it honestly felt like I was just there, even though I haven't been there since the summer. I'm really hoping this year will be fun. It's going to be incredibly different, thats for sure, but I'm just really hoping that I won't regret not doing something else. Anything Goes sounds fun though. I should probably brush up on my tap skills a bit before auditions. Yeahh...we'll see.

Graduation. Exactly a month and 20 days away. I find it somewhat odd how the closer I get to graduation, the more I appreciate Oak Grove and Fargo. I suppose that's how it is supposed to be. But I feel like I'm at a really good place right now. It's scary to think that in a few months, this will no longer be my home. And the fact that my parents are moving out of this house within the year may have something to do with that feeling as well. We all have to move on at some point I suppose. It's just particularly frightening because now I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I know that I don't exactly have to know right at this moment, but it would be nice to have somewhat of an idea. Hopefully Stevens Point will help me figure that out.

I really want to go rollerblading today... unfortunately I believe my rollerblades were stolen. Damn.

Until next time....

Gretchen Bailey Haga

Survey Crazy!!

Stayed single almost the whole year?
Almost. 11 months.

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
I suppose.

Dyed your hair?
Yes!

Came close to losing your life?
Nope.

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
NOOOO

2009: FRIENDS & ENEMIES
Did you meet any new friends this year?
Of course!

Did you hate anyone?
No.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
yes.

2009: YOUR BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?
Nah.

Did you have a party?
Yeahhh holla

Did you get any presents?
a few

2009: ALL ABOUT YOU
Did you change at all this year?
Definitely

Did you change your style?
Not really.

Were you in school?
Mhmm.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not really

Did you go on any vacations?
Arizona

Would you change anything about yourself now?
I don't think so. I'm happy with who I am now.

2009: WRAP UP
Was 2009 a good year?
For the most part, yes.

Do you think 2010 will top 2009?
I sure hope so.

IN THE YEAR 2009 I CONFESS THAT I....
Kissed in the snow?
Nope.

Had your heart broken?
No.

Done something you've regretted?
Yes.

Painted a picture?
Haha, no.

Wrote a poem?
Haha, no.

Ran a mile?
Yep.

Visited a foreign country?
If Canada is a foreign country, then yes.

Cut in a line of waiting people?
haha lunch line.

Told people you were busy when you weren't?
Yes.

Lied about how old you were?
maybe?

IN 2009 I.....
Broke a promise?
maybe.

Lied?
Most likely.

Disappointed someone close?
yes.

Hid a secret?
Yeah.

Pretended to be happy?
It happens.

Layed out under the stars?
you bet.

Kept your new years resolution?
I had quite a few.

I think i must have kept some.

Forgot your new years resolution?
There were like 16.

i have them written down though.

Met someone who changed your life?
sure.

Changed your outlook on life?
A little.

Learned something new about yourself?
Yes.

Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it?
possibly.

Made a change in your life?
working on it.

Found out who your true friends were?
Starting to.

Met great people?
absolutely.

Stayed up til sunrise?
yep.

Cried over the silliest things?
it happens.

Had friends who were drifting away from you?
Yes. also happens

Spent most of your money on food?
yes.

Had a fist fight?
No.

Liked more than 5 people at the same time?
haha no. We live in Fargo, remember?

WITH 2009 COMING TO AN END. . .

2009: In The Beginning

Where did you go on New Years?: Tony's, then Ginny's
Who were you with?: Friends
Did you kiss anyone on new years ? Nope
Did you make any resolutions?: A few.

2009: All about YOU

Did you change at all this year? A lot
Did you dye your hair?: yes
Did you get your hair cut?: apparently a trim means to chop it off... ughh
Did you change your style?: Not really.
Were you in school? Yes
Did you get good grades?: Yes
Did you have a job?: Student Leader?
Did you move at all?: Nope. still in the same little townhouse

2009: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?: yesl
Did you meet anyone special?: Yes
Did you fall in love? No.

2009: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends this year? Yes
Did any of your friendships end?: Yes.
Did you dislike anyone?: of course.
Did you make any new enemies?: Not really.
Did you resolve any fights?: Yes
Did you grow apart from anyone?: Yes
Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: yes.

1. Have you had any relationships this year? Yes
2. Have you had your birthday? Nope.
3. Kissed two or more people in the same night? I dont think so.
4. Been on a diet? kind of? just trying to eat healthier
5. Pulled an all nighter? Yep
6. Drank Starbucks? Yes
8. Bought something(s)- No I actually grow everything in my backyard and make everything myself. duh i bought things
9. Met someone special who changed your life? not in a big way really

Do you usually plan ahead?
depends what it is. but sure.

Are you one of those crazy Twilight fans?
Not really. I used to be. But the vanity has somewhat worn off

What if your most recent ex came to your front door with flowers/present,wanting you back, what would you do?
umm I'm sorry....

What is a song that you can never get sick of?
i dont know. I think I probably could get sick of any song if I listened to it enough

What were you doing before you logged on to facebook?
watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Look to your left, what do you see?
the door

Could you go out in public looking the way you do right now?
I would prefer not to, but sure.

What shoes are you planning on wearing tomorrow?
my uggs most likely.

I don't think I could get through the snow with any other type of shoes.

Do you wish you still had someone in your life that you don't anymore?
absolutely.

Are you wearing jeans at the moment?
nope sweats

Do you pick out your outfits the night before?
most of the time, yes.

Are you currently tired?
eh. just lazy.

Is it easy to make you smile?
most of the time

Speaking of which, when was the last time you smiled?
Probably while watching Harry Potter.

When did you last eat pizza?
few days ago.

Have you ever done something you promised yourself you wouldn't?
yes

Who is the last person you said "I miss you" to?
I think I did when I wrote on Kelli's wall on her birthday

What was the funniest thing that happened to you today?
Vinnie jumped on me and woke me up...

its been a pretty uneventful day.

What is the background on your phone?

Me and Kelsey in our christmas get-up

If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
not likely.

Who was the last person you hung out with?
My family. Mostly my sister.

Are you drinking anything right now?
no

Who are you thinking of right now?
Nobody in particular.

Have you ever crawled through a window?
yep.

When was the last time you went swimming and where?
Labor day weekend at the lake?

Plans for tomorrow?
No idea.

Where is your phone?
downstairs.

What's your nickname (if you have one)?
gretch betch

grooch

taters

Do you read other peoples' answers to surveys?
if I care about them. possibly.

Does anyone not like you at the moment?
yes.

Ever been out of your state?
like everyday.

Are promises important to you?
yes.

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
like a hug? yeah i suppose.

The teacher calls on you in class, but you haven't been paying attention, and you say:
That doesn't happen.....

What do you really think about where you live?
I like it. except when it snows us in.

Relationship status?
single

Who are all the messages in your inbox from?
Twitter, Emily,.... there's more I just don't feel like looking

Your friend says she's got tickets to see your favorite band in concert, you say?
You better have one for me BITCH

What were your brother/sister' s first words?

No idea. I'm the youngest.

Is anyones smile etched into your memory?
not really.

Your mom tells you she's pregnant, you say?
hahahahahahahahah she already tried to pull that once. Scared the hell out of me.

I would laugh, because that would be impossible.

A good quote to put on your bedroom wall would be:
no idea. Something that's not cheesy though.

When was the last time you actually wrote someone a letter?
I think I wrote Bailey a letter 2 summers ago. ha.

Have you kissed anyone in the past 27 days?
nope.

Last person you shared food with?
don't remember.

How long did your shortest relationship last?
like 2 weeks.

Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?
not really.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
sweatssssss

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
of course. there's a few.

Do you need to say anything to someone?
what needs to be said has been said.

Do you think before you speak?
normally.

Is there something you're not looking forward to?
going back to school

Do you think boys truly understand girls?
no. probably not.

Last time you kissed someone in a vehicle?
few months ago.

What is one word you seem to always misspell that you know you shouldn't?
restaurant. I think I got it down now though.

What was the last movie you watched?
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
yeah go for it

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?

Anoche, con mi familia

Have you ever punched anyone of the opposite sex in the face?
nope.

When you hear love songs, who's face pops in your mind?
nobodys really.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
mhm.

When was the last time you wore a dress?
I tried on my new one yesterday :)))

What is your favorite month of the year?
july

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
blueberries.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
maybe one.

What's your opinon on girls who become obsessed with their boyfriends?
Some can't help it, but you have to learn to balance your time.

When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
the other day.

When was the last time you laid in bed with someone else?
don't remember

Whats something you remember about kindergarten?
Mrs. Gjervold, being best friends with Rachel Erikson

Having a big crush on Jayme McGillis

Thinking about anyone?
of course

Anyone you miss?
desperately.

What are you looking foward to?
My New Years Party!

Plans for this week?
writing my 3 page dance essay, dancing in the cities again, Ergan's Birthday Party, My New Years Party!

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

I never really understood that song. Although, Christmas time is pretty great, I wouldn't say it's the MOST WONDERFUL time of the year. With the 'freezingcoldwannakillmyself' weather and the excessive stress and wondering if my car will start or not, it's not exactly what I would call the most wonderful time of the year.

But yes, it is Christmas time. I wonder if Kyle (our tech director at school) took the blogger and twitter blocks off our network as an early Christmas present. Hmm... doubt it. He's probably watching me type this. Creeper. Just go walk to your car a thousand times during 7th period.

Only 3 more days until Christmas break. Which means 2 more tests and 1 Spanish final which I probably should be studying for instead of writing this blog. But I feel the need to update. And once Christmas break comes I get to spend the majority of my time driving to the cities and writing my 3 page essay for the Stevens Point dance program which my mom says has to be done before New Years. Sound fun? YOU BET. That's sarcasm if you didn't catch that. I do love the dance I'm working on though for my audition. It's completely worth driving to the cities almost every weekend. Hopefully my hardwork will pay off.

So You Think You Can Dance finale is on tonight. Kathryn better not win. You seriously don't want to hear my argument against her. Trust me. I love Ellenore. I voted for her continuously for two hours last night. I calculated how much I voted. Each vote takes like 10 seconds and if I voted for 2 hours then it would be 6 votes per minute. 6x60= 360 votes per hour. 360x2= 720 votes for 2 hours. So I probably voted just around 700 times (with certain calls that took longer than 10 seconds and other reasons). Holy shneikes. I hope you enjoyed that. That is my math for the day considering I'm not in a math class.

I'm having a New Years Party. It's my reward for doing so well this year. Thanks mom and dad. I'm excited. So if you know me and aren't doing anything you should come. It will be a ballin time. Also excited just because the new year means new beginnings. That sounds cheesy, but it would be nice to leave all the shitty stuff of this year behind. I need to figure out a list of resolutions that I want to achieve in 2010. Graduating I guess should be one of them. Graduating. Now that's scary. I'm both excited and terrified. I'm sure once time gets closer I'll be writing more about graduation, but I'll leave that as just a little thought for now.

Happy Holidays

Feel the need to blog

So much for updating more often.
Or not. We have some extra time in PF today, so I thought I would keep this updated.

Life has been pretty crazy lately. Like really crazy.
It's so weird. Life is dull and boring and then I wish for something exciting to happen and life gives me more than I can even handle. It's ridiculous.
And even though life is so crazy, its actually really good. Maybe because I like to keep myself busy, but whatever it is, I like it.
My mom has been really funny lately. We bonded over something that we both do which I dont feel like I should post for the world to see, but you can ask me personally if you would like. But it was hilarious. Also she read me Where the Wild Things Are last night. We called up my sister and put her on speaker while my mom read to us. I felt 5 years old again. The sad thing is that I think she was more excited to read to us than we were. ha.
Vinners is living with Brittany right now. Of course it's nice not having your dog attack you every time you come home and also not having him hump all of your male friends, but I do miss the little devil. It was a nice break, but it's time for him to come home :)
We actually have directors for our one-act and for our musical now! Kelsey Johnson for one act and Kristen Fox for our musical. I'm not doing the one-act for various reasons but I'm curious to see what our musical is and how it will all pan out.
I'm going to the cities next weekend during teacher's convention to look at UofM and begin working on my dance for college auditions. I'm super excited for this! Even though the thought of college and picking the right one and picking the right major scares the bajeebers out of me, it's still exciting preparing for my life.

There's nothing much to complain about. Or nothing miniscule enough where I would want to post it for the world. Not that the world reads my blog. Or anybody for that matter. It's going to be a busy weekend. Just the way I like it

TGIF


Gretchen Bailey Haga


p.s. I hate tools :)

BACK TO SCHOOL

Herro!!

So now that i'm back to my mediorce days here at the OG, I suppose its appropriate to start up my blog once again. No more emo posts. I promise. Well..... we'll see.
After a mostly funfilled summer of Trollwood, I am back at school. Everday 7:25 to 12:15. Which is pretty nice if you ask me. Until I start Spanish at Concordia that is. Which is Monday-Wednesday-Friday. Wah wah. But thats okay. Me gusta espanol. ha.

My weekend was pretty fantastic last weekend. Friday was Emily's Birthday Gem-boree which was super fun, and Saturday was game night at my house with Quelf, the notecard game, and "Da Bitch House". And to to top it all off, Jieun and I went to the lake on a lovely sunday afternoon.
Weekend=SUCCESS!!
Aubree just laughed at me because I am blogging. But it is SHE who is missing out. bahah.

All (or i should say a lot) of my friends are leaving for college again. Its sad. We had a goodbye shindig for Thomas last night. Me and Catherine made him a poster of SYTYCD. Needless to say he loved it.

Unfortunately it is only Tuesday and we have a full week this week. but this WEEKEND i'm having a bunch of people out at the lake which should be pretty entertaining. Plus we have Monday off for Labor Day.
Life is good.
Getting out of class at 12:15 is good
I'm gonna start nannying soon.
That is good.

I just need to figure out my dance classes. yikes.

1 day more til SYTYCD
8 more days until Glee
13 days until Gossip Girl
16 days until The Office
26 days until Desperate Housewives!

Its a busy month.


Thats all for now!

Gretchen Bailey Haga