Writing my angries out

Alright. So its 6 days until the Wedding of the summer and 7 days until I leave once again for Bumfuck, Wisconsin aka Stevens Point. It is Sunday. I think. And I'm using today and tomorrow to get stuff done in Fargo. Which of course has lead me to here. Barnes and Noble. Of course! Actually I do have to get stuff here, but currently this is what I'm doing which may or may not be a waste of my time. Normally it would be, but right now my reason for creating yet another blog that most likely no one will read is because I'm in one of those moods on one of those days. I'm tired, moody, irritable, annoyed (which might all sound repetitive, but I can do that because nobody is actually reading this). My reason for being this way on such a sunshiny day probably is a result of many things including being stuck at a cabin with a mother who is freeeaaakkking out about a wedding which she has decided to take on way too much, a somewhat creepy guy who I finally told to back off after he would text me everyday just to say "HEY WASSSUUPPP", and I'm still in that rut where I feel like I'm losing connection with people. Maybe it's all that small talk that I had to do as a server. Working 6 or 7 days a week serving during the summer might do that to you I guess. Not that $3,500 wasn't worth it. It definitely was. But it seems to take its toll.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this summer wasn't what I expected. Not that it was bad. It was just slow. And different. According to my family, I've grown up in ways that they're just so incredibly proud of me. Which last like a minute before they go back to wedding talk. Not that I'm not excited for the wedding. I am. It will just be nice when its all over and we can get to talk about something else and my mother isn't a crazy obsessed wedding nazi. Or maybe I'm just ready to go back to school.

I'm really hoping for this year to be different. I just want to fast forward to a week after school starts. When auditions are all over and the whole "excitement" of being back wares off for everybody. And I can once again have Starbucks to myself. Unfortunately it will now take me approx 7 minutes to walk there instead of two, but i suppose I'll survive that somehow. It could be worse.

More than anything I'm just ready to go to Spain. I need a change of scenery. I want to experience things on a larger scale. I know its bad to expect to have this incredible amazing journey that I'll always remember, but more than anything I want that. No matter what I know it'll be an eye-opening experience. One I'll have to work at. But for now I'm just going to take things as they come. That doesn't only come for Spain. But life in general. Insightful, right? Maybe not so much. But since nobody reads this, it's okay!

I really need new music.